New Year's Blog
Happy New Year!!!
I sure have not been very good at keeping this blog consistent in 2025, but right now I think that's okay, the monthly diaries were getting tiring to write. In 2026 I'll be checking up once in a while when I'm not talking about Ace Combat.
Relevant things that have happened recently that I've not blogged about and planned to at some point:
During late October I met an online friend for the first time, we went to see Angel's Egg 4K on theathers (what a movie, man); in the same night I wore a skirt outside for the first time! Exciting night! I've found out that when you're in a public space, people mostly don't care or they don't say anything about the fact you're wearing a skirt (although I did notice one or two weird looks towards me). I actually wish I had gone out wearing skirts earlier but there are current circumstances right now, and my own sense of self-awareness didn't help either.
More recently, a couple of weeks ago in December, I met another friend from far away for the second time in person and she gave me some clothes, which I thought was very sweet and we had a fun day. I wore short overalls that day, but it was a piece that really looked like a dress so for all intents and purposes I went outside in a dress for the first time. Yay. I really don't have these kinds of opportunities that often (going out with friends + "dressing up"), so I really valued these two occasions.
And for the last few weeks of December I played more Ace Combat, of course I did, the last one I'm playing probably for a while. Ace Combat 7 is a fucking videogame, man. The story is kinda terrible but what a good time to play it is. It's just insane, you really don't get setpieces and levels like that anywhere else. Fully closing a cycle considering it was the first one I tried to play way back in 2020 and had to drop cause it was too hard at the time, but now I conquered it!
So catching up diary aside, I just wanted a short recap, since 2025 was maybe the most important year of my life cause I finally managed to fully… realize and accept, let's say, that I am trans (I wrote about it). It's the best thing to ever happen to me and, with its ups and downs, 2025 was one of the few times I felt like I was living — and it's true, as strange as it feels when I put it like that. I mean, sometimes I feel like I might be exaggerating putting so much importance on the transition or whatever, but I think it is just a fact. For one, I'm actually making friends now, which is something I kept telling myself I had to do for years but never did; I've also had the urge to "crossdress" for years, too, and the only time I actually went for it was after the transition. It just gave me a drive that I don't think I had in me before. The one time I remember doing something with actual passion was a couple of years ago, when I wanted to cosplay as Arcueid for a con and went after the clothes and the wig… And there's clearly a pattern there, you see. So it might've been a shitty year in some ways, but I can't just ignore the best thing possible happened to me on a personal level.
Other very important development which will surely sound silly after baring my soul and talking about gender is I've been getting more into books and videogames. I've probably mentioned it in this blog before, but with books, I've wanted to read more for years, too, and I've only really started doing it with any consistence this year… No relation to gender this time, though; and with games, I started to really be playing things consistently after 2023, but I played so much good stuff in 2025 and expanded my tastes and seen so much of what can be done with the medium, I feel like last year was when I "got" into videogames for real, and it's been so rewarding. I guess in both these cases it was more of an ongoing process before 2025, but last year was really the moment I felt a shift… Maybe it does have something to do with gender after all, I don't know.
So I hope 2026 can be a year of new discoveries once more. I'm not feeling that optimistic at the moment in general, if I'm being honest, but I hope it can have some positives. Personally I have my own goals and resolutions for the year that I'd love to accomplish, but I'm not writing about that until I can say for sure I've done it.
Until next time!